My Anxieties, Have Anxiety!
A few weeks ago we had a message at church about anxiety. I’m in the far back because I operate the slides on the screen and I always pay attention to how people react. So many people were into the message taking notes and responding with non verbal cues, I thought wow, majority of us deal with anxiety.
I knew the message would help me get to the next step of dealing with the mind games of anxiety, but I didn’t realize how many others have been battling the same issues. So because of that here lies this post.
I worry a lot and even when trying to pray I stop in the middle of my prayer and wonder if God hears me, what am I forgetting, what if I mistake Gods voice and do the wrong thing, and so on and so on. My anxieties, have anxieties!
We all know every issue has a root, and my root was not worry/anxiety, it was faith!
I had to take a step back and ask myself why am I worried?
I came to the conclusion that I feared the future and being a failure because I have failed in the past, I didn’t trust myself to make the right decisions and ……… I didn’t trust God.
“No faith, not even a mustard seed”
What?!? A “believer” “Christian” “prayer warrior” not trusting God.
Yes! I didn’t believe God cared enough to tell me the right thing or to concern hisself with me and due to my many mistakes, I didn’t trust myself enough to hear from him. I didn’t believe he would do anything on my behalf because of things I wanted done that didn’t happen before.
Where did all his come from? My roots have roots! This was rooted from things in my past that I though should happen a certain way but didn’t so I never forgave God for how things played out and never forgave myself.
I soon realized I was disappointed in the outcomes because I didn’t reflected on what God was doing, only on what I wanted.
So I began to read on faith, read on things God says about me, and prayed to heal from those situations (a different post will go through this process). Through it I found:
-God does love me and wants me to prosper
(Jeremiah 29:11, Zephaniah 3:17)
– His grace covers my mistakes. He knows I didn’t know better and did the best with what I did know.
(2 Corinthians 12:8-9, Ephesians 4:7, 2:8-9)
-Everything that happen was apart of a bigger picture beyond me wanting my way
(Romans 8:28, Proverbs 16:4, Luke 9:23)
So after this process I trust him again, I’m hearing from him clearly, I’m using his word not my words. Then I started to dive head first into those things I feared. I let go and took a step of faith and it released me from the mind games of anxiety. Gods plan (👀 no Drake) is his plan and you having fear will not alter it but it will prolong the process. Any path you take will lead to his plan choose the one that skips pass the worry, fear and doubt. Accept the trials and keep moving forward.
Anxiety still tries to ease its way in but I’ve overcome it once and will continue to fight! Intentionally think on GOOD things (Philippians 4:8).
Dig back to when things started, what things do you hear through anxiety and think about where they came from. Don’t be discouraged find the root and be honest with yourself because God already knows.
Your purpose is to be free from anxiety and walk in confidence down your path. Face anxiety head on!
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